Prayer

Well there is much to be said for the word "prayer". In times of happiness, sorrow, grieving and etc. there are family and friends who always tell you that they are praying for you. That you are in their thoughts and prayers. And as that is comforting sometimes it is not enough until you yourself pray and ask God for his help. Others can always pray for you but until you ask yourself you don't feel complete.

Recently I have had this experience. In the last couple of months Harry and I have been going through some rough times with me being sick with my endometriosis. There has been many doctors appointments, medications and more doctors appointments. In all of this, Harry has been nothing but supportive and helping out with the housework and with Elly as much as he can. Taking Elly on the milk route and to Blair is quite a challenge but Harry did what he needed to do. Through all this we have had family and friends say to us that we are in their thoughts and prayers. Very comforting but still until I lay it all out there and surrender to God I have not done my part.

Here once again I am surrendering to God. Tomorrow we are once again going to see another doctor. A fertility doctor. In December and then again in April I had a miscarriage. I was only about 5 weeks along both times. There has been talk about maybe doing surgery, fertility drugs and other things like just waiting and seeing what happens. We don't know what we will find out tomorrow but here I am asking for prayers as I will be asking my own tonight prayer to God. We just want what is best for me and a future baby to be safe. Whether that means that I need to have surgery, go on fertility drugs and or just wait and see what the good Lord gives us is what we will do.

But at the end of the day when I am saying my nightly prayers the one thing that I remind myself and thank God for is my little blessing that he has already given us. And if she is all he gives us we are thankful and blessed.