Wowser

That is the word for the day...wowser! There has been so many changes in this household over the past month. The biggest being Harry on nights. This has been a shocker on all our systems but mostly the girls. Elly doesn't do good with change. She is one that likes to know her agenda and she is good with whatever is thrown her way as long as she knows in advance. She gets this from her momma. Well all these different changes have been hard on her and for that we have had a little bit of attitude. This has been hard on me also as I feel responsible for her outbursts since I am not completely there for them right now. This has been an internal turmoil for me as I am pulled in many directions. I am told that I need to take care of myself and Baby Harry but I also have two sweet baby girls that are depending on me also. And yes Grama has been here and for that we are gratefully appreciative but sometimes Grama just doesn't cut it and they way just me. Those are the hard times because if I am not feeling fully up to par I feel torn as to whether or not to sit down and let Grama deal with the drama or hold out for just a little bit more, make myself a little more miserable and then sit down. Well most times the girls win out and then I am miserable. But they can't help what is going on and it is not fair to them to be pushed aside all the time either. Harry has been trying as much as possible but as it is he is only getting 5 hours of sleep a night. So I hate to ask more of him. It is just part of the changes that we are going through.

Another change for Elly is being at home with me all day and night and not getting out like she was when I was working. As much as she says she wants to be at home with me, I think she does miss the social part of it and therefore I have been trying to keep her busy with activities. Which can be hard to do some times. With all these changes and with her knowing that I am not doing well with Lil Harry she has not been easy to get away from my side. As you might recall me mentioning her time at Papa Harry and Nonie's and how she didn't want to be away from me then. Well the other night I sent her to Grapa & Grama's for the afternoon in hopes that she would have fun there and would want to stay the night. No such thing. All the time she was there she kept informing Grama & Grapa how she needed to sleep in her own bed and that she needed to go home to her momma when it got dark out. So Grama brought her back. I think it will be different when I am in the hospital just because she will be at her house and she will see me at least once if not twice a day. So I am hoping that it will not be so hard on her.

Lorelai has done great with all the changes. She is happy I am home and she is happy with the time she gets to spend with her daddy, which isn't much but she takes what she can get. She has been getting up for 2-3 hours a night and I thought her tooth came through...what I didn't know was that she was working on another one that came through before the other one. That will make 7 so far! They are popping in one after another for her. Elly was like this also but she didn't get up nearly as much as Lorelai does. That is ok, I wouldn't sleep well either if I had pesky teeth trying to break their way through.

Well all is quiet. Grapa & Grama came up this evening and helped with baths and getting them to bed. But I sent Grama on her way as I don't want her to feel she needs to be up here every night. So we will try the night by ourselves and see how we do.