I Did This To Myself

Yes, I have stabbed myself with a pitch fork in my foot...or at least that is how I feel right now. Lorelai finished her Prilosec the other day. All was going good and I didn't think that the soy was doing much good. When I talked to Dr. Nancy about what to do earlier she had told me not to switch formula's. But the genius I am, found on the Similac website that soy would help her therefore I switched her fully. When she was not satisfied I went to half and half. Well when we were back to getting up like we would with a newborn versus once in the night like we were with having the regular Similac I decided to switch her back to regular all the time. At that point she was only getting one scoop of soy and I had put her down to half a scoop of soy. So Saturday I switched her. We had two bad nights of crying and just uncomfortable. At this point of not having any sleep and a crying baby I then was thinking "what have I done". Well I couldn't keep switching her. That would just continue to screw up her system. Therefore I went with what Dr. Nancy said which was not to switch formulas so I have stuck with the regular formula and we are heading through the fog together. Last night was a good night where we got up, ate and went back to sleep. I do see the light at the end of the tunnel but it has been a hard tunnel as I really didn't know if I was making the right decisions. My cousin Jena made this comment the other day and it is so true - wouldn't it be nice if God gave us little post it notes telling us what was going to happen next, then we would be prepared. I completely agree with you Jena. Also another quote from Lorelai's Godmother Laurie - this too shall pass. This is what is getting us through these days along with lots of patients and prayers.