Guilt

Yes I am feeling that way today. Last night Lorelai was having one of her meltdowns around 11:30 last night and I couldn't do anything for her. Yes I know this will happen from time to time. I still have those moments with Ellaree every once in a while. But after an hour of crying and no consoling, I just lost it and had my own meltdown. I felt so guilty having Harry get up and take over. As some of you know, Harry gets up at 1 AM on one day and 4 AM on the other day. So for me to have a meltdown was not a great thing for me to do. But there comes a time when you just have to walk away - it is better for the baby and for yourself. I know this and yet I am feeling guilty because now Harry is driving exhausted more then usual.

I have found that if I give Lorelai a bath at night and use the Johnson's Soothing Bath that it makes a world of difference in her evening. I have the lotion too so I will have to start using it nightly and hopefully that helps. This helped Ellaree also when she was a baby. These things come to me after a couple of hard days/nights of what did and did not work on Ellaree. Live and learn, I guess.

Her reflux has been fine since going off the Prilosec and I think we are finally getting better with the formula switch for the last time. So we will see what Dr. Nancy says tomorrow at her 2 month checkup. Yes 2 months tomorrow already! I can't believe it.